I feel like the weight of
the world is on my shoulders, and I’m the one who put it there. Nobody else put
the responsibility and the stress onto me, I brought it onto myself. I just
want to take a break, but I’ve just started and I don’t know how I’ll make it
through. It’s like I’m drowning in everything and I can’t breathe and I know
everything is only temporary but this temporary looks so permanent right now. I
can’t see past it and I feel like I’m going to fail, and if I do fail I’m
letting everyone down, because I’m not the only one involved in this. In the
back of my head I know that they won’t be let down or disappointed but I’m a
perfectionist and I’m setting my mind to this goal and if I don’t achieve this
goal I’m going to be left hopeless and confused and not knowing how to recover.
I can’t be in that position again. I can’t stay here anymore, this horrid place
and judgmental people who don’t understand what I’m saying. I need out. I can’t
stay in this town anymore and anyone who knows me knows I’m leaving the first
chance I get. I don’t know where I’m going but it’ll be far away from here.
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